Seeds of Illness

12 Sep

To say I am angry, is not enough.

Anger makes me an irrational animal,

I’ll bite you,

I’ll growl,

I’ll make you bleed!


The result, is worse for me than you.


I’ll look, at what I did and said—

and think, that wasn’t worth it.

Praying, wishing that it could be erased

just the event, let time create another memory for me,

one in which guilt won’t follow.




I question my anger. I question the source.

I ask what is your purpose?

I’ll find it has no aim

no goal.


It’s a temporary sickness.

The minds disease when unsure how to cope,

but most of all,

when there is not an inch of understanding,


How can we start thinking of solutions?


Maybe it’s about caring

about giving a shit

about putting it all together

and asking yourself

before anything else transpires

what does this mean to me?

What is going to happen, if I pull that trigger to my insanity?

Whats gonna be the result?



It’s no good.

It’s no solution,

it’s no answer.


Question your anger

question what it means,

and most of all–you must remember,

that anger starts as a seed…


Pluck it OUT of your mind,

throw it to the wind.

because anger is NOT REAL.

And it only becomes so–when you let it enter reality,

don’t let your anger become a physical manifestation,

mark it as useless.



Become the strong spirit you are.

Find it within yourself

that strength,

can come when

the illness of the mind

no longer exists.


10 Responses to “Seeds of Illness”

  1. carolynpageabc September 13, 2012 at 12:22 am #

    Unless anger (like all emotions) are addressed, given a name and allowed validation, they will remain…

    • cookie200007 September 14, 2012 at 2:00 pm #

      Yes! I aslo think once you understand it you won’t fear it

  2. Clanmother September 17, 2012 at 12:12 am #

    Hello, I have just nominated your blog for the One Lovely Blog Award:
    I would be honoured if you accepted the nomination.
    Rebecca aka Clanmother/ChasingART

    • cookie200007 September 17, 2012 at 12:05 pm #

      Rebecca I feel so honered thankyou so much for considering me!!! I am absolutley delighted and happy to accept :)!

  3. Kara Peterson September 18, 2012 at 2:00 pm #

    Very Nice and wise!!! I am glad you found my blog and lead me to yours! All the Best!

    • cookie200007 September 18, 2012 at 6:28 pm #

      Thankyou so much Kara 🙂
      I can’t wait to read more from you! xoxo

  4. Lorre September 24, 2012 at 11:57 pm #

    You are such a talented writer.

    • cookie200007 September 25, 2012 at 4:18 am #

      I can’t even tell you how much, happiness & confidence your comment just gave me, thankyou for reading—when I am feeling doubtful I’ll remember, thankyouthankyou!

  5. Alarna Rose Gray October 16, 2012 at 12:59 am #

    Powerful words. I love that you say ‘Question your anger, question what it means…’ Because it seems like often there is love beneath it all, and when we make friends with it – it can be an amazing source for good…

    • cookie200007 October 16, 2012 at 3:11 am #

      Alarna first I want to say thankyou for your thoughtful kind comment! Also this is such a unique perspective—and its true, that behind all this emotion we call anger there is something deeper, something good,and it can teach us! Thankyou again—and for following :)I look forward to following you aswell!

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